I've lost my motivation

And will to live.
I mean... I will live but I don't have any good thoughts about my future and my life. It's just empty. 
For the first time I think I have a real depression or something alike. I won't go to a psychologist, he won't help me, it something deeper I think.

Don't worry about me, I'm ok. I will live. 
Something happened and it changed my psyche. I will be okay someday.

I wrote this here because I wanted to. I don't want attention. I just wanted to be honest with you.